And We Wait....and wait....and wait

Ahhhhh the waiting game is most difficult. I have been off chemotherapy now for nearly 6 weeks and await my surgeons to get there acts together to set a date for surgery. One must be off chemo only 4 weeks to be ready for surgery yet they drag their medical feet....ugh.  It would appear that one of the surgeon's vacation takes priority, now we are looking at June 29th,as yet unconfirmed, to get going. This all makes me feel vunerable, being without chemo protection for so long. Is the cancer growing during this period, is it looking for a new blood supply? I hope and pray not. It will be a tad more than nine weeks of no chemo by the time we do this and my conversation to the surgeons will be this...if you get in there and find the cancer has spread because you needed to go lay on a beach somewhere, don't bother waking me up as I will no doubt hurt you to the extent I will be getting to know our infamous sheriff up close and personal! So we wait..... I hate waiting....another test of only seeking Positive Pursuits.... I am trying.