Friday, March 30, 2012

Heavy Burdens r us

Home sold in two days, trip to look at homes in OR near a daughter was a waste as  my private insurance now tells me they will not cover me in that state. Loved seeing family and grandkids though. Trip landed spouse in ER with medical emergency which now makes me the caretaker as he is not doing well and cannot help with this move and is an uncooperative patient. Chemo today, must recover soon. Trip to southern CA to look for living space near our other daughter planned in five days but the state is very expensive where we need to be and I have doubts we can do it. Then home with three weeks to pack up the house hire labor to load up and figure out where we are going. Lord I wonder how much more I can carry....I trust you think I can do this, so I will. Trying to remain positive, I think I can, I think I can..... :)

Tuesday, March 13, 2012

Query

Because a stage IV disease tends to make one take stock on life's priorities, we have chosen to move closer to our children and their families in an effort to enhance my quality of life for as long as I can live. I am a few months into my third year of treatment and frankly, with no guarantee on longevity, I am ready to make this move. Our choices are two states, Oregon and California. There are multiple pros and cons relative to living in either state however we find ourselves focusing on what might be available when standard chemotherapy ends someday, and it will. I am still a novice at alternative medicines and continue to research, so if you have any experience in one or more therapies please advise in the comment lines below. My Nurse of two years who comes to the house to disengage chemotherapy does not recommend naturapathic medicine. He has seen many of his patients follow various vitamin injection and enema regimes that simply have done nothing but drain the bank account. Of course, whether any therapy or treatment is effective partly depends on one's mindset.... one can heal while taking a plecebo! I know the Eastern cultures view treatment differently but again, I have only begun to research. We are heading to Oregon state next week or so to look at property but now have discovered that the area in which our daughter and family live, no clinical trials exist. If we settle there and wish to participate in such experiements, we will need to travel far north to Portland for treatment which will be tiresome and expensive and our resources are grossly limitied. Medical opportunities for treatment are far better in southern California but we will pay a price to live in such an expensive state which, like many others, is struggling to survive in this economy. Tough choices and then the work of moving. Our home sold in a week....a shock.... so at a "senior" age we now must struggle with a move that requires the energy of youth, something we lost sometime ago. Trust in God and all will be well.... hope so. While all this happens, I need to skip a month of treatment in order to pack and move... no choice there as cannot do this amid being sick from chemotherapy. Again, Trust in God. Stay well my friends, and continue your positive journeys. :)