Sunday, November 7, 2010

Feeling Good, a Good Thing

It has been some weeks since my last chemo treatment and having received a reprieve for a couple of months, I am feeling good. I have been incorporting some meditation, aroma therapy, wellness tea and have been seeking some inspirtion via numerology. I have not been good in keeping straight with the Mediteranean diet but I will forgive myself as I have not been able to taste for so long, that now that taste is coming back, I eat what tastes good, not necessarily what is good for me. Oh well, I will try to do better. :) The numerology research only supports what I already know; that I am strong of mind and spirit, I do not give up when I have a goal to attain, that I am humble and thankful, that I am a survivor.... so it is. I shall survive and overcome this disease. It will not beat me, it will not win. I feel great, I feel strong, I feel I can cause some control within my body, I will mentally and physically attack that which threatens my body and I will live to tell about it. Mind over matter, it is working, I can feel it.
Now, occasionally I pull a poem out from the past to share, and perhaps I will pull a  new one out in the future, but for now, a little humor from the past.

A numbing sensation
Creeps along my spine,
Reaching down the sinews
And to my brain does climb.
It makes my eyelids drowsy
And turns my feet to stone,
It tingles in my bloodstream
And seeps into the bone.
Now this numbing sensation
Crawls and settles deep.
I really wouldn't mind it....
But damn my rears asleep!

Ok, enough already. I hope everyone seeks good health, peace and no stress and only positive pursuits. Night all!

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

A Nice Break

Ahhhh we returned from a couple of days out of town, away from medical appointments, doctor visits and constant conversation about how I am and cancer in general.  There comes a time when the cancer patient needs to escape the medical and home environment all of which is a constant reminder I have the disease. So, rested now, new frame of mind, and grateful my oncologist has given me two months off of chemotherapy to rebuild strength and body functions (which truly have remained quite good). I will take the break, enjoy the lessening of neuropathy symptoms and eventually get some control of colon function which is annoying. It is November and remains in the upper 80's and lower 90's here in the Phoenix metro area. Hard to believe it is fall and I truly miss the trees turning color in Oregon which is where we spent most of our life. I do not intend to simply vegetate during this time off. I continue to research aids in healing and plan on inpledmenting some yoga, meditation, and a few other things into my daily ritual to enhance the mind over matter advocation. I continue to eat healthy and organic if possible but I have not regained taste yet and cannot tolerate meat, breads, or sweets. To gain protein which I need I try to incorporate cheese when I can and now supplement with some protein source drinks to help me out. I am not losing or gaining weight which is most acceptable.Under normal circumstant I would take another fifteen pounds off but it is risky to do that when your immune system is already compromised, so I will not. I hope those of you who visit, will pay attention to your body's signs of need. Try to walk, try to eat organic, try to eat mediteranean cuisine and try with all your heart to eliminate stress in your life which causes inflammation which in turn feeds cancer cells. Please start to do this with your children also, so as adults they will avoid fast food and be conscientious about listening to their body to know when something is out of sinc.  Stay happy, keep praying for a miracle for me, and be healthy above all. I love you all.